Adoption ADHD Gets Worse

I’ve talked about Adoption ADHD and Needing Focus on occassion on my blog.  With everything going on the past week and a half, I’m suffering from it horribly.  I absolutely cannot concentrate on the task at hand.  I walk around in a haze thinking this or that.  What if we get the kids?  What if we don’t?  How can I prepare for either?

At least some of the thoughts could prove productive.  Here’s I’ll show you. . . take a walk through my mind.

• Our Life Insurance would likely allow us to get a loan for about $4000 should we need it for legal fees, a booster seat, toys, bedding, furniture, computers, rugs, bath accessories. . . ok see how bad my mind gets to thinking of all the things we’d need
• There’s a really neat looking Shaker Village in Kentucky.  I’ve always liked Shaker style.  That would be a great place to visit- just Cody and I.
• I was finally able to find information on a program that I remember looking up after reading about it on Ali Edwards website.  And the doctor down in Houston involved is our insurance.  It’s a program for children with autism.  I found the old email where I sent the link to myself with info on the boys and their sister.
• I also know that we don’t have many board certified pediatricians in our area that are on our insurance and only one board certified child and adolescent pyschiatrist in town on our insurance.
• There are a lot of really expensive but super cool photography workshops held in great locations around the country.
• I really like the Eric Carle bedding that I found but other than that it’s really hard to find great kids bedding.
• If we are selected, I may just have to pay my nephew to help pick out appropriate stuff for the boys.
• Jason Boland plays in town late next month.  And, we couldn’t register for the music fest in Steamboat until late summer.
• Our leave policies have been worded differently.  Now, technically, Cody and I could take up to 12 weeks a piece of FMLA.  Of course, I’ve only got 4-5 weeks and I’m not sure about him.  Previously it read that we could take 3 months but had to split that. 
• There’s some interesting Adoption training at Adoption Learning Partners.  I enjoyed the class about advocating and it sparked a number of ideas.
• If we don’t get selected and we walk away from this path, I want to go somewhere in May for the weekend. . . April is Turkey season so it’s ruled out. 
• We could afford the hotel at the Houston Galleria for a weekend.  That would be interesting.
• There are some great educational games out there and even a few educational games for the Wii. 
• Still not sure about whether I’d want them to share a room and have a play room or put one in each bedroom.  (Any opinions/thoughts?)
• The Magestic America Cruise Line is up for sale and no longer offering their amazing cruises down US rivers.  Missed out on that dream. . . still couldn’t afford it anyway.

See what I mean. . .and that’s just the more coherent thoughts.  I feel totally out of sorts at work and seek out other ways to entertain myself at home.

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1. Adoption ADHD
2. Waiting while on a Rollercoaster Ride
3. Wednesday Talkin’
4. Expecting The Blessings Of Family
5. Prayers For Adoption