This girl struggles with self-portraits. Most of them come out strange, stupid, or whacked-out weird.
That’s not all she struggles with. This woman struggles with finding balance. She wants to do it all- be it all. She struggles with being childless. Still there is not a day that goes by that it doesn’t cross her mind. She struggles to be present in every moment.
She wonders what would happen if she were more comfortable in front of the camera.
She wonders how she got so lucky to have such a great husband. She wonders what if all the time- sometimes in a creative or problem solving good way, sometimes as her mind just wonders and day dreams, and sometimes in a place of anxiety. She wonders what plans God has in store for her.
Every once in a while, the attempts at selfies meet with what this woman would take as success (at least moderately).
She’s finding her voice and her place in this world through creating, taking pictures, and writing. She enjoys seeing her creativity flourish. This woman is making peace with her current size and allowing herself grace when she considers how she’s gained weight. She’s finding the light in all kinds of things- soaking in the sunshine as much as possible and letting the Son shine on her.
This woman with all her struggles, wonders, and successes, she is me right now.